Spike&Xander double drabble

[cityphonelines]

For amejisuto; she requested S/X and provided lyrics from 'Come to My Window' by Melissa Ethridge. It's not really shippy, more friendship/possible pre-slash. Takes place in the weeks post-The Gift.

All it took was a beautiful girl taking a dive, some cracks in the concrete and a sobbing vampire to completely skew his worldview. Now everything has faded and he’s having trouble finding out what made it all worth it, because facts are facts; Buffy’s dead and Hank took Dawn and now Willow makes him wary and a bit afraid. She’s up to something, Xander’s sure of it. He wonders how long he has before Anya grows tired of loving a man that has suddenly become unsteadily silent; but at this point it isn’t about her or any of the other hers in his heart.

Now that nothing makes sense he spends his nights with Spike. He can call Spike and trade his involuntary breath for Spike’s forced air as a code. They can meet on Revello Drive and stand hip to hip. They can stare at drawn curtains and mourn the lack of light flooding out from under the door. He can let his knuckles knock and roll against Spike’s and Spike can grab Xander’s fingers in his hand and squeeze tightly.

Xander’s sure this is hell and figures at least he’s holding hands with an experienced tour guide.

Comments

[crazydiamondsue.livejournal.com]

Xander’s sure this is hell and figures at least he’s holding hands with an experienced tour guide.

That brought back everything we talked about the other day. Damn, that was pretty. Mourning the lack of light...just freaking beautiful, baby. Sad now. Hug?

[adis723.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Thank you and actually, our 'summer between S5 and S6' conversation was the muse for this, so double thanks. Because, dammit, they needed to grieve, Xander needed to grieve. And now he has.

[tabaqui]

Oh, i like that.
Yeah. Like a lot.
:)

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweets! I'm so out of practice with the Spander. They didn't even have smoochies!

[tabaqui]

Oh, didn't need it!
Didn't need it at all.
:)

[amejisuto.livejournal.com]

Damn! That was just good. I was dark and deep and I felt it down in my gut. Thank you!

[adis723.livejournal.com]

*wipes brow*

So glad you liked it! Thank you!

[outsideth3box.livejournal.com]

Ouch.

That was good. Thank you.

::sigh::

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Oooh, I like getting an 'ouch' ; )

Thank you for reading!

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Beautifully painful. ;)

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Thank you, love. Leave it to Ame to request Spander when I'm so out of practice!

[dancetomato.livejournal.com]

Xander’s sure this is hell and figures at least he’s holding hands with an experienced tour guide.

This is a haunting sentence. Just brilliant.

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Brillant? Whoa! Thank you so much!

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

"He can let his knuckles knock and roll against Spike’s and Spike can grab Xander’s fingers in his hand and squeeze tightly."

Yes.

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Thank you, I had to rewrite that sentance repeatedly to meet the 200 word mark so I'm glad it worked ; )

[werewindle.livejournal.com]

That was great. I esp liked - Xander’s sure this is hell and figures at least he’s holding hands with an experienced tour guide.

Wonderful line. ^_^

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Thank you muchly ; )

[entrenous88.livejournal.com]

Liked this very much-- the tone feels desperate and quiet all at once.

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Thank you, the desperation was what I was going for.

[anelith.livejournal.com]

Just gorgeous -- in addition to that wonderful last line, I want to point out how apt the "unsteadily silent" phrase is; also I like the bit about "trade his involuntary breath for Spike’s forced air." You turn such a beautiful phrase.

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Yay! You quoted the part I was proud of (the breath and air thing), I can always depend on your fb to put a goofily proud grin on my face. Thank you.

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

Rarely have so few words been so moving. This is beautifully written. Thanks for sharing.

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Rarely have so few words been so moving.
Wow, that's an awesome compliment! Thank you for reading.

[nasty-shrew.livejournal.com]

This?

Xander’s sure this is hell and figures at least he’s holding hands with an experienced tour guide. ...

nearly made me cry. Beautiful little piece - I'm so glad amejisuto demanded S/X :)

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Leave to Ame, man, I'm so rusty with the Spander, but how could I not bow to that request? Thank you!

[cloudiecat.livejournal.com]

A wonderful description of how everything is going bad - love how the final line sums it all up.

cloudie

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I always thought they needed to show us more of everyone falling apart after Buffy died.

[moimoietmoi.livejournal.com]

Beautiful drabble! Xander's grief is so heartbreaking!

Loved this:
Xander’s sure this is hell and figures at least he’s holding hands with an experienced tour guide.

[adis723.livejournal.com]

Xander's grief is so heartbreaking!

I know! Don't you just wanna hold him and comfort him and pet him? Glad you liked it.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

Oh, Vinnie. SO beautiful. you know I think you have the best command of words around here, right? There's something in the way you knit language that at first appears so simple, but is so powerful in the imagery I get in my head.

It all seems so plausible and real, and I can smell the smoke from Spike's cigs, and see that Xander just ran his hands through his hair and the bangs are going to flop over again. And Spike will reach up and fix it for him.

[adis723.livejournal.com]

you know I think you have the best command of words around here, right?

Well, no I didn't know that, but now I do! And now I'm all smiley. And yes, your image of Xan matches mine. Poor babies!

and I can smell the smoke from Spike's cigs
Hey, so can I! No, wait, that's just my dad.